Dear lifeofnickki fans,


I understand that it’s been a while since I last posted a blog post but you have to believe me when I say these past weeks have been mentally challenging. Other than the fact that I have been too busy to write, I have also been caught up in my emotions. I have been trying to reconnect with you all even though I’m not in the mood and it has not been easy either. I guess you can’t really dish out what you don’t have. I was having a conversation with a friend on how I have been struggling to write these past few days and she made me see my blog in a way I never had. She said I should just think of my blog as a public diary and just express how I’m feeling right here and right now. I’m just going to dive into everything quickly while still trying to motivate myself and you all.


School is definitely taking the bulky part of my anxiety and depression lately. Although I haven’t been able to find a good solution on how to handle my current situation in school, I have been trying my very best in staying calm and also surrounding myself with people that distract me from my overwhelming thoughts. The school environment just feels entirely different in the sense that I have to take care of myself. My brain has been constantly make decisions about everything that concerns me. It’s way too much load for me to handle and sometimes I feel like I’m breaking down. Well, if you have any advice on how I can effectively manage my decisions and still remain sane, kindly drop them at the comment section. A lot of us here would really like some good solutions.


"Next time you're stressed: Take a step back, inhale and laugh. Remember who you are and why you're here. You're never given anything in this world you can't handle. Be strong, be flexible, love yourself, and love others. Always remember, just keep moving forward."




Although I’m not in a relationship at the moment, my heart still works effectively and I have been doing terrible at controlling the feelings I have for a guy that doesn’t seem to be on the same page with me and I wouldn’t lie to you, it has almost been impossible in controlling those feelings. I guess some things can’t be controlled. But something that helped me stay in check, is the usual constant reminder that I deserve more than a guy that seems to be too busy in giving me attention. Well, if you somehow find yourself in a situation like the one I am in right now, you might want to consider what’s more important right now. It is advisable to pick yourself over and over again if you ask me. Although this shouldn’t be a motivation, however, the one thing that gives me strength when it comes to letting go of someone is the thought that there are millions of guys on this planet that I could pick from. The list is so long, and trust me I have all day😂. So don’t be scared of prioritizing yourself over anyone else.



“Know what matters most to you and be unwilling to compromise those priorities at almost any price.”

– Frank Sonnenberg



Gosh, when will I have all this money I’m dreaming about! This was what came to mind after I imagined myself living the kind of life I have always dreamt about. Society makes these shortcomings really exhausting especially with the pressure that comes from our peers. However, I’m reminded today that those pressures are just noises. So all you have to do is shut those noises and keep staying true to your grind. Someone once told me that if everything went smoothly, I won’t have any story to tell. I guess all we need right now, is to be completely patient with ourselves and just enjoy the ride.


"There's competition at every phase of your life. The day we start thinking about it, you lose your peace of mind. I don't compete with anyone." -- Rakul Preet Singh 


I leave you all once again with this quote I heard from a pastor,


“Never feel bad about what you are because you are a journey ".